tired…

[erastes]

Please please please :)  (shameless beggage) vote for Speak Its Name on the Preditors and Editors site for best review site. It would be great to finish in the top five. Unlikely, as the voting hots up, but one can hope.

Dad quite muddled today, couldn't find the cups and saucers—and that's just one thing. I really think it's time he started thinking about a Home, but he changes his mind from one hour to the next—let alone day. One minute he's all "that's a good idea, let's look into it" and then when I get some brochures he's aggressively and angrily against the idea. But I think it's time, but I'm not ready to force him into one. How I'd manage if he did, I don't know – I'd have to sell my house, I think, and move in here, because at least there would be no mortgage to pay, and I'd have to go back to work. It's all a worry. ETA: he's much better this afternoon, sunshine and a good lunch of stew seems to boost him. Just so tired. I could literally fall asleep now. I'll tell the doc when i go, not that he'll care! 

Eye clinic very pleased with my progress though, they asked how often I was wearing the occlusion and they were surprised to hear that I wasn't using it at all. There's still double vision around the edges of my vision, but I can now use the PC, watch the TV and drive without too many problems. i take the glasses off to read.

I'm reading "The Devil's Lieutenant" by M Fagyas which is an enjoyable romp so far, apparently there's a male relationship that shocked and scandalised the Austro-Hungarian Empire in it. Hurrah!

Back to editing Muffled Drum—nothing too terrible so far, and I should be done easily by the end of the month. Then I need to address what I'm going to do. I'm not worried about starting "a month late" – no point in getting stressed about it, but come February I need to go all out on whatever I'm doing next, whether it be a continuance of "I Knew Him" or something new entirely. I feel I'm hiding, sticking my thinking head in a bucket and then burying that bucket in a deep hole to stop me thinking about it.

What do you think of Shostakovich's Jazz Suite 2 for the video of Muffled Drum?  I admit it's anachronistic, but I do like it, and it really brings to mind a glittering ballroom in the Prussian Empire with dashing frogging uniformed officers with exuberant moustaches.  Rudolph is my first moustachioed hero – I wonder if that will put people off?