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Lost a day on .. Sunday i think it was, however am catching up 2119 words today, and 25486 in total, which is only 1186 to catch up on to bring me on target. Am gobsmacked that I've written 25486, and at least 20,000 of those, probably more are Transgressions.

"It wasn't…"

"Wasn't like that with me? Wasn't it? You didn't come back did you? Hal told me how it was 'Your turn!'" the words came pouring out, words that he had been keeping back for weeks, every bitter thought he'd been harbouring. "You arranged it all, the ale, the distraction of Jonathan, you wandering off - yes he told me everything. Everything! How do you think that made me feel? You took me, introduced me to something so wonderful, taught me about myself, and then left! Left me to deal with it. If you had left me alone, gone to the next farm instead - do you think I would have done what I did to Jonathan? Would have even considered it?"

Tobias was staggered - he couldn't believe that David had all this bile hidden away inside him, that he blamed him for .. for everything.

"You can't blame me for that!"

"Why the hell not?" David raged, knowing he was being unreasonable, but simply unable to stop, the dam had broken and the water of catharthis was released. "You destroyed us both! Jonathan was a good man, he believed in hell and damnation - and all that, thanks to you I made him do things that he thinks he's going to hell for."

Tobias snapped. "Jonathan! I'm sick to death of hearing about the saintly Jonathan! He drove you away, he wouldn't believe you when it really mattered and still you moon over him like a love sick maid."

"He was never unfaithful. I'm beginning to think that I should have stayed after all."

Tobias spun him around, "I've never been unfaithful to you, David, I swear it."

David refused to look at him. "Really. Hal told me just how faithful you were to him."

*sobs* *pets boys*