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[erastes]

I'm very happy that Transgressions is finally moving along. Over the last 2 days I've written 1600 words or so and that's more than I've put on a page for months, fanfic included. For those of who who've migrated from my other LJ you'll know it's been an albatross around my neck for over 2 years while I've been honing my skills (such as they are!!) in fandom. I've had a lot of support from people and a lot of patience from these beta-reading but it's moving - at bloody last, and I can see the end of the tunnel (unless it's a big bloke with a torch...) (although that might be quite nice too)

When it comes right down to it, I tried to blame my block on just about everything, from not listening to classical music, to being seperated from canaries_chick at work (which was true, a little bit, as we'd talk about it during the day and I would get inspired by her input) to not knowing how to bridge a gap of 3 years - to a million other things, but I think the story dictated itself. When I was ready, it was going to come, and it is - slowly.

However it's hard. Have any of you written something so dark that you didn't want to continue with it? It's like the bit in The Lord of the Rings when Sam says that there's a bit in books where you want to shut the book, well, this bit is a bit like that. It's horrible and I'm causing my boys unnecessary pain and suffering. It's just as well they can't sue me.

Hold on boys. end in sight. We can do it!

Comments

[haydenthorne.livejournal.com]

*poke* I don't know if you've seen this (http://www.wildchildpublishing.com/content/view/164/96/) yet, but I thought I'd bring it to your attention, anyway. :)

[erastes.livejournal.com]

i know. but.. sniff. I love Jon so much.

[haydenthorne.livejournal.com]

I'm at a point in one of my novellas where I seem to have angst'd the hero into a corner, and I've no clue how to reel him out. ^^; Last I heard from him, he's stuck in Venice with a perpetually drugged out fuck-buddy. And he hates me. I've yet to return his messages.

Given the context of your novel (I've read your excerpt), pain comes with the territory, I think. If it took place here and now, everything would turn out differently. But then maybe I'm simplifying things too much.

[erastes.livejournal.com]

*giggles*

I just can imagine him writing to you "HELP" and you ignoring him!!

That's true, there aren't the zealots around and the belief system that would bind Jon to Michael like this.

it can't be unnecessary

[dubaiyan.livejournal.com]

if it really is unnecessary you wouldn't include it :)

*argues circularly*

Re: it can't be unnecessary

[erastes.livejournal.com]

thats true. they DO need to go through it.

but.

sniff.

As long as J lives...

[dubaiyan.livejournal.com]

*sudden fear*

[shenya.livejournal.com]

However it's hard. Have any of you written something so dark that you didn't want to continue with it?

Yeah, I spent a memorable afternoon writing a torture scene because a character had insisted on having a flashback. Left me feeling icky and off balance for the rest of the day.

[erastes.livejournal.com]

Gosh yes, I'm very interested in hearing of someone else who has done a torture scene. Mine took weeks to write and I felt so awful all the time.

In fact he's still being tortured, although it's more mental cruelty now.

*supports you*

[shenya.livejournal.com]

Mine was Tolkienic fanfic and was a few pages of the character having flashbacks to the orcs trying to turn him into one. Unfortunately the game it was for fell over in a nasty way :P

Admittedly I do have a character now who tends if not to torture then certainly to a selfish cruelty. At some point I might try and get a book from him, he is one utter bastard of a vampire.