Satchmo Strikes Again
Nov. 5th, 2009 11:34 amDo please pop along to Jessewave’s Blog for my column this week. I’m discussing the Hero. We love him on the page, but would you REALLY want to live with him?
In other news, the novella (Tributary) is getting there. I would say it’s “almost done” because it IS, in a way—but it’s only half written. As usual I’m writing it in rather a jigsaw fashion; the main bulk of the book moves forward, but I work on scenes that may or may not make their way into the whole thing, and of course, I’m writing the end. Meant to do it yesterday but felt too much like crap. Better today, thank you! Still got a nascent cough and a snuffle, but nowhere near what I was expecting after yesterday.
What' I’ve realised is one of my characters has to have a name change. His name is Louis and his lover’s name is (surname) Armstrong. Is this my subliminal guilt that all my characters are white?
Have a small sniplet:
He rested like that for a moment, stealing the still moments from Louis when he could—God knows they were rare enough, the boy was eternally restless. He rested his hand on the curve of Louis' back, that warm space which might lead to delight in a moment, if Louis kept still long enough. He felt Louis' lips against his shoulder and the flutter love stretched again, deep in his being, for it was more poetic than saying it happened in one's belly. Stupid old man, he castigated himself. What a predicament to find yourself in, after all these years. In love. At your age.
Louis shifted, predictably, unable to stay in one place, sliding from James' grasp. James didn't try to hold on; he couldn't force Louis to stay, not in his employ, and not in his arms. He was only grateful that he did. But Louis granted him a brief, dazzling smile before turning away into the bedroom. As James changed into his pyjamas he could hear the boy humming from the other room and it took effort not to watch him through the crack in the door.
Instead he sat on the edge of the bath and washed his face again. As he stood up, he shivered. He'd been feeling a little dizzy since he took the stairs and now his joints were aching. He hadn't paid attention to them much during the evening, but they'd been complaining since before dinner. Oh no. Not again. Looking at his lined face in the mirror he could not resist a grimace at the comedy of errors he was in. He knew he was obsessed. Knew he was caught in the saddest of things—an older man's fancy for something he could never keep, and he played his part. He didn't cling. Didn't go overboard. Louis had to know that he could trust him to be there—so far, and no more. How Louis would shy from the truth—the truth about all of it. How he'd hate to know the depths of feeling running under the surface, he'd run from that.
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Date: 2009-11-05 12:35 pm (UTC)