erastes

argh! because my brain and fingers don't seem to want to write anything, and I have that aversion feeling everytime I think of writing…and my body gets dragged off to do anything but. It's a bit of a worry. I think I'll go back to trying to make a small target, like 500 words, and just push forward a little bit each day. I do get scared when I feel like this, that I may have "got over" writing. I used to get crazes, you see. Gardening, competition entering, things I did wholeheartedly for a few months and then just stopped, never to do again. I really really don't writing to be like that—because frankly, without writing, I'm just an unemployed clerk who didn't do anything with her life!

But Teddypig (as well as kindly buying me Dragon age 2 – grateful squee and I can't wait for it!!) has bunnied me about a fantasy. I've been re-reading The Ice and Fire Saga really, so I know I can never do anything like that—but I was thinking. I did start a fantasy story for Musemuggers – years ago. It was only a short novella and I never finished it, but there wasa lot of world building. Just maybe I could do something with that.

When I posted the other day about not having an ereader it was in no way meant as a plea for someone to buy me one. I shall make very sure that I never post "gosh i want…" something again—because someone very kind has bought me one (you know who you are)—and I'm hugely grateful. Very British that I find accepting gifts very very difficult, specially when they aren't for any reason—and I die of shame that the post made it sound like begging. But I am hugely grateful, it will help me run Speak its Name and I promise I'll look after the reader and won't take it in the bath!!!