Nice things in the post today

[erastes]

Beautiful white roses and winter bouquet from jateshi. Thank you darling, how very thoughtful.

My author copies of "Ultimate Gay Erotica 2007" and a cheque for $100 yipee!

and because I am sheep. baaaaa

In 2007, erastes resolves to...

Find a new homoerotica.
Find a better rwday.
Overcome my secret fear of transgressions.
Ask my boss for a slash.
Drink four glasses of standish every day.
Volunteer to spend time with tara_chan012s.

Get your own New Year's Resolutions:

I couldn't FIND a better rwday, there just isn't sich a beestie. But the rest are pretty funny. I do seem to have a fear of getting Transgressions finished. But I won't be asking my Boss for a slash. *shudder*

My Universal remote control has broken and I can't find the original satellite remote control. Gah. I may have to go OUT and buy a new Universal remote... Not good. I've been hermitting the last couple of days. Funeral is booked for the 8th, so that's something. People keep RINGING me and asking me when the date is, and that's so irritating. I'm pleased they care, but I hate phone calls. I'm sending INVITATIONS so why can't they just wait? It's not like I'm not going to tell them... I went to bed last evening at six pm, 1 because it was freezing down here, and warm up there, and 2 because I felt like crap. and the phone rang five times.... sigh.

I need to write. I want to write. I miss writing like an old friend that would be a good person to cuddle, but my brain is like stewed rhubarb and I can't concentrate. I've been playing Tomb Raider Legend (which is great, despite people saying it wasn't) obsessively - albiet on easy... I've come to the conclusion that you really need to be a geek to do well at Tomb Raider, all this obsessive collection of artefacts, when really I just want to get to the end of the level alive and find out what happens next.

I just wish that game makers made more of the point and click puzzler games still. I keep meaning to go and buy some back catalogue ones but never get around to it. I don't want to keep shooting people, I like having to THINK about how to open a gate with nothing more than a stick covered in termites, a coathanger, a crowbar and a safety pin.

It amuses me that Standish is for sale on a site called Soccer Overdose... It's such a MANLY book. *chortles*

Comments

[cloudofcalm.livejournal.com]

Hey erastes. If you need to write, and can't focus, try a 'game' that my old writing teacher taught me. go around the house, or go online onto ebay or whatever, and pick up two or three completely random objects - On a trip, I picked up a banana, a little elephant figurine, and a plant pot. Take a second to look at one of your objects, and then spend three minutes writing. It doesn't matter what, you can ramble, but for three minutes, you're writing. You stop, after three minutes, and do it again.

Or there's round-robin writing, using other people to back up that lack of concentration. Start something, go until you lose concentration, and pass it on.

[erastes.livejournal.com]

Thanks hun. I don't think it's lack of focus, I think it's just lack of ... anything.. I have this hole where my soul used to be and if I try and poke it, I just start crying. Pathetic I know. I just feel numb, and the problems of my characters seem to have paled into insignificance.

[cloudofcalm.livejournal.com]

It's not pathetic. It's loss. I don't really know what to suggest - try going back to something nice and comforting and familiar. I think I re-read the Narnia books after losing something important; just trying to console the deep deep ache that's there. You'll get back to a place to write trivialities, but right now you're dealing with other stuff. Why don't you write down how you feel? Writing anything would probably help.