VD my love meme

[erastes]

The local cinema has delivered a load of chocolate. That's nice of them! *scoffs*

Ok, so another year passes and I still don't appear to have made it to Venice for Valentine's... So here's some Valentine's messages to those I love - anonymous of course, or rather in a break from tradition the giftees are anon but I hope you will spot yourself.  I don't normally go all mushy like this, but there's a big hole in my heart right now and the love has to go somewhere.


I love you. I know you don't read this journal but she does, maybe she can tell you.  I know I say that I love you regularly but I don't want you ever to think that it's not heartfelt and just a random collection of letters.  When I was 11 we became friends through the strangest of circumstances and *cough* years later you are still loving me, and I'm loving you.

I love you. You are the most infuriating person I know, full of contradictions and bravado and insecurities but I'm grateful that you never gave up on making me your friend and never taking no for an answer.  You shared my vices and helped me celebrate them, and I'm sure you helped-with our stupid multiple personality roleplay-unlock this wellspring of writing.  I'm so happy that you've found love, you SO deserve it.

I love you. I tell you every day and it still doesn't sum up what I feel about you. I stand in the shadow of your talent and gape in amazement at what you do with your stories. When you are away I feel like someone has taken the sun and my muse and all I can do is pace, bichon-like, until you come back. You've shared every second on my online life, it seems and if I am to be joined to the hip with anyone-and it seems I am with you, for all the good things and the tragic too-then I'm glad it's you.

I love you. I am dumbstruck at the way you grab life by the balls and make it behave.  You took a life-threatening illness and against all the doctor's gloom and doom have beaten it back and your determination to keep out of hospital is wonderful.  I love the way you decided to write and have watched, smiling, as you've gone from "I can't think of any plots" to now writing steadily in several genres.  I wish you every success. You deserve it, and I'll be there every minutes, cheering from the sidelines.

I love you. I love your northern stocism and your bugger it view on life.  You were the first person to read Standish, chapter by chapter as I wrote it, and it was your enthusiasm for the project that helped me continue in the early days. I love how you've coped with your illness and how you've made a haven for yourself and your cats. I may not see you from year upon year but the memories of student flats, broken showers and bedbugs are enough to make me smile. I love how you are always there to share my obsessions.

I love you. You have grown in talent and confidence in the years I've known you. You've broken away from a restrictive life and have done your own thing against the wishes of others and it's worked. You've made friends, and seem really happy, and if I had told you four years ago you'd be where you are now, you wouldn't have believed me. I love your lush way with words, your coloured posts and your positive stalking of a certain ballet boy.

I love you. You may not be real to most people, but you are real to me and it's a great deal to do with you that I have Rafe and Michael and Achille and various villians to come.  I love your arrogance and the way that fandom and Jason has made you more and greater than JKR had ever dreamed you could have been, they've taken your twisty little mind to their hearts and made you great.  You won't deserve whatever fate she gives you, darling, but you are welcome here with me forever.

Oh and 

I don't love you anymore.  You'll never read this, and I don't even know where you are, but you've lost your place in my life.  One day you'll need a mother and a sister and you'll realise that you'll never get one of them back and the other wants nothing to do with you.  I hate you for making me hate you

btw - there's a lot of others on my flist that I love, you all deserve a mention - so have a hug each.