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I feel better in myself today, if that makes sense. The bleeding stopped the day before yesterday (just the 18 days of it, LOL) but I felt—probably unsurprisingly—completely drained. When I was lying on the settee I felt like I had a lead weight crushing me down to the cushions and as before, even walking the few—six or so—steps from living room to kitchen had me sitting down and screaming for breath. God knows what my neighbour thought was happening, if she could hear me—sounded like i was having sex everywhere in the house. I could only get up the stairs on my hands and knees and as I had to “nip” to the loo before Doctor Who on Saturday, it amused me to notice that it took me the same time to get upstairs (13 steps) as it did for TWO contestants to go around the Total Wipeout final course.

BUT – today I DO feel better, that is I feel bright and my mind feels alert and I’m not wanting to stop doing anything after a minute. The trouble is of course my strength which is never good at the best of times being overweight, but I really feel like I’m in convalescing mode—my legs feel like cotton wool and start to shake after a very little time, but at least i CAN walk more than six steps without having to sit down with my head between my knees. I have strong iron pills and I’m also taking slow release uber strong vitamin C, vitamin B complex and cod liver oil.

So that’s good, and a real improvement. I’ll give it a week and then get my bloodwork done and get an appointment for the Mirena coil. Hopefully the next period won’t be for another three or four months, so I’d like to stop it before it starts!

THANK YOU to everyone who has IM’d, emailed and sent best wishes. My entire social life these days is wrapped up on the net, so to have so many people concerned and asking for regular updates is a real blessing.Sadly Dad doesn’t retain the information in his head for longer than a minute, and I have now given up trying to make him try.

As for Doctor Who this week, I actually enjoyed it. I’ve seen a few blog posts here and there wondering what the thread is this season, and I sort of hope that there isn’t one, and it’s just a case of the Doctor being dragged around the universe by the Tardis being where he needs to be, yanno, like it used to be. The Ponds can disappear any time they like the sooner the better, or Amy, anyway. Keep Rory. Loved the idea of Rory’s Dad rushing around with the Gang, although I wish they’d SHOW us that instead of “Doctor with Hot Girl Companion” you know we are capable of watching the Doctor with a male companion – there is precedent. Wasn’t really sure why the Doctor was quite so desperate to put the dinos back – or even that he had a concept of extinction but I went with it.

What I didn’t like is this Doctor who blithely goes killing people. My image of the Doctor isn’t like that, although I think the Doctor changes in some respects – being less tolerant, being less forgiving “No second chances, that’s the kind of man I am” says Ten)—I don’t think he changes fundamentally and killing people (or that’s how I always thought of him) goes hard with him. Look at The Family of Blood, for example. The family did terrible things and killed children and adults alike and had been a scourge across the Universe. What the Doctor did for them was far worse than death and make him even more dangerous and icily deadly. He’s had (as Tom Baker, I think?) the opportunity to eradicate the Daleks and yet didn’t (i think). And I remember in Tennant’s first outing, he let the Sycorax ship escape and was frankly horrified when the Prime Minister blew it up. So to have him casually kill Solomon in this week’s episode for no other reason (that I could tell) than being a plunderer and smuggler and slaver (much of which Jack Harkness was guilty of, let’s be honest) with no trial, no proof, no history that he showed the knowing of was appalling. Yes, it saved their lives, but the real Doctor – the Doctor in my head would have saved them ALL and given Solomon up to a greater justice. (e.g. as he did with the Sleveen…)

What think you, fellow Doctor buffs? My knowledge of Old Series is limited because unlike the Americans, it hasn’t been shown on UK TV for decades. I’d like to know what you think about that “execution.”